Thursday 26th 9.00am

 Thursday 26th 9.00 am

I am capable of fighting the demons and hurt within me

I, on my best days, (on every day at the moment),

am capable of managing, suppressing and living with those demons and hurt.

When I am strong I can.

I fear one day I will not be strong enough

Not be able to fight or suppress

And on that day I will succumb to

The ultimate darkness, the long-lasting sleep

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