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Saturday 26th

 I walked away,  Walked home realising that that may be the last time I saw you.  There was no real purpose in meeting again  you wanted your life and that was not going to include me. I would become an occasional cup of coffee "every four or six weeks" when it didn't interrupt you being what you wanted to be,  what you wanted to be doing. It's no good you talking about all our time together   you've already said you were unhappy for a long time of that time.  You were the one who walked, no discussion, no negotiation. Words of hurt generated through your justification of leaving. Time ended.  So now we just need to sort out the 'administrative' elements. The emotional elements remain captured, for all time,  in stasis  in each others memory  in each of our words, differently  our previous outward equilibrium, immobile  motionless The perceived balance state of the bodies  ended time ended  

I wanted to believe

 I wanted to believe  I did not move things, because I wanted to believe  I kept things, because I wanted to believe. I believed so as not to dismiss all that time  Then it stopped. The believing  The acknowledgment of end  no belief  End