I walked alongside me

 I have walked alongside me 

for fifty years

An inside me

An outside me

A tormented me

A confident talented me 


I have always been there for me 

when the tormented me was abandoned and alone

when the abandoned me was alone 

when the tormented me sought and fed that torment, 

it was the only feeling I knew

Self inflicted hurt

Self inflicted pain 

Self inflicted doubt 

In all those times 

I walked alongside me

In all those times 

In all those moments of hurt 

In all the exasperation 

I was there

a small distant spec of survival  

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